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Post #81 : Kehadapan Si Penghancur Hati #1

11 comments:
 


Hujan.Sejuk.Tarik Selimut.


Jam.Lewat.Tarik Selimut.


Kipas.Pusing.Tarik Selimut.


Bangun.Malas.Tarik Selimut.


Kau tahu tak? Aku kosong semangat.Bila aku tahu kau dah kena sunting.


Kau tahu tak? Aku kosong jiwa. Bila sampai berita kau dah ada orang berkenan.


Kau tahu tak? Aku patah harapan. Bila berita keriuk bukan kau yang beritahu.


Bodohlah aku ingatkan ada peluang nak selam lagi dalam.


Bodohlah aku ingatkan ada ruang nak aku letak hati seruam.


Bodohlah aku fikirkan sekelumit sayang kasih sayang.


Haha.Gelak pun apa guna. Nak puaskan hati? Nak puaskan diri? Nak hilangkan sunyi?


Kau tahu aku mana akan berdiri.Bila bukan kau yang disisi.


Ah celaka boleh pulak aku berirama. Bukan niat aku nak berdrama.






*Mengeluh*




*Tarik nafas*






Kau nak tahu satu cerita?


Ingat tak saat kita satu kereta? Penat berkelana ke Putrajaya? Aku konon-konon di seat belakang terlena?


Saat kau bercerita kisah suka? Saat kau ceria berkongsi cerita? Pabila kau kini milik jejaka?


Aku dengar semua kisah. Aku telita semua titah.


Manakan mampu aku terlena. Jika disisi kau aku berada. Namun, ketika masa bersama kau aku cari, berita ini yang kau beri.


Dalam olok tidurku aku tersenyum sendiri. Memikirkan kau tak pernah tahu kudrat di hati. Haih apakan nasib bukan engkau aku miliki.


Sial kenapa aku masih lagi beirama!






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Jam dah pukul 7.30 a.m. Bahana tidur balik lepas Subuh. Capai tuala, masuk bilik mandi. Kepala paip dipulas arah lawan jam. Air terpancur keluar berderuan. Nafas ditarik. Kepala dihulur di bawah deruan air.


Niat dipasang di dalam hati. "Moga-moga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam". 


*Senyum*



11 comments:

miss rabbit said...
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miss rabbit said...

sadddd....='(
die x pernah tau ke ur feeling towards her?
she must be so touched if she read this entry... believe me.

Faisal Rasyid Roslan said...

Luckily she doesnt have to know.
I doubt if she knows this blog exist.
LOL!

miss rabbit said...

the tittle sounds like u put the blame on her..how can it be if she didnt know the truth...
why dont u tell her?go tell her laa...haha..JK!=P
but i know how does it feel when we have not to reveal whats inside..it hurts.REALLY

Faisal Rasyid Roslan said...

Gave a lot of hints really.
Shes not that stupid to not notice.
anyhoo, she's someone elses now.
Better not to kacau.

miss rabbit said...

are u very sure that she got the hints??
i hate to say this.. but sometimes some guys are jz easily give up w/o clarifying things clearly...cz all we need is just a confirmation..
we never know u guys are serious or not n we'll never feel safe with the unsure things..
cz girls are hoping for a secure,long lasting relationship..
plus, lots of guyz jz want to play around,test his market,watsoeva..
n thats why women will not take the hints seriously eventhough we notice it.
hahaha..sounds like im a bit emo.. but this is a truestory... peace!(^_^)v

Faisal Rasyid Roslan said...

It doesnt really matter now that she already has a fiancee right? so why bother. But thanks for the advice thou.

miss rabbit said...

she already has a fiancee??ouh ok...*speechless*
nothing much to say..too late already
not to worry, u'll find yours too.one fine day..
u'r most welcome..sorry for too much mumbling in ur blog..
but this entry do remind me of someone n something that happened before. btw, keep writing!=)

Faisal Rasyid Roslan said...

Glad my writings inspired you.

gamepoint amd said...

amboi sedih pulak aku baca. xpa ayed. aku ada

asyrafsamsudin said...

sad bro..but someone waited for u for sure,,nice wordings...first impression..successful man with great education

 
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