Brunch is not so bad once u've tried.I had it this morning/afternoon.And by the looks of it, my stomach is a bit confius rite now.

Lepak-ing at the faculty is not a bad idea also once you get used to studying under a very-fast moving ceiling fan which someone would mistakenly confused it with a helicopter rotor on backwards. So here I am,after brunch, lepak-ing at level 2 of the Engineering Tower (was it right to capitilise 'E' and 'T'?).

First of all, my deepest and sincere apology due to my absence in the blogging world about 2 month or so. I have plenty of reasons lined up. One of it is my recent lack of ideas and writers block that comes when you spend two month taking up failed papers when other people are enjoying their stupid holidays! (well, the reason it's stupid coz everbody else got to enjoy theirs but me). Anyway, pointless complaining aside, I'm back, for good, Insyallah.

My absence was not without something. I actually have many to tell and discuss in this blog of mine. Noticed the new template? Decided to make it more simplistic. Words, titles and an angel of death on the side.Reason? None. Hey, it's my blog, so live with it. Owh, credit to my friend AisyaKama. She did all the codings and what not. I was never really good at programming thou. Thanx a lot AisyaKama. Heard she's unemployed. Well, hope she finds a job or continues her studies. All the best~

For today's enrty, I would like to discuss on a lacking of a human quality in some of my peeps that I have found to be very very disturbing, COMMITMENT. Yes,yes, I know what you guys are thinking and i promise you this would not be a lecture session given by an unqualified-yet-to-have-a-degree-but-very-good-looking-malay-guy. (Owke, the last part was a bit exxagerated.hehe).

Here's the story. Last night I had a drama gathering session seniors-and-juniors for our weekly practice. Since the coordinator had something else to be 'busied' with, she had ask me to conduct the gathering first. Well, me being who I am, obligated to her wishes in the sake of my COMMITMENT to the drama team that I love (also a bit exxagerated). So I went to this certain 'senior' member of the drama team and asked him to come down and meet the juniors. And this is where the story got pretty hot. His fucking-selfish-very-rude-stupid answer was "MALASLAH!". yeah, "MALASLAH!". What a 'great' show of commitment. The only day I had asked him to come down and meet the juniors but he gave such an answer. I was furios, mad and hating this certain 'senior', all at the same time. With this attitude, no wonder everyone hates you behind your back. Oh? Did I 'accidentally' spill it out. Oh. My bad. So sorry 'senior'.

To let you imagine how mad I was at the time, I came bursting inside his room, throw all his stuff from the table, started cursing him (FUCK YOU! was used more than fifty times.yeah.I counted) and questioned his commitment to the drama team, and give him a fist punch at his nose.Broke it too. But ofcourse, all of that, NEVER HAPPENED. Instead, I stormed down the stairs, kicked the door and said "FUCK YOU senior's name". Of course by the time I said that, I was already on my way to the tennis court for the weekly gathering.He never heard~

So people, commitment is important regardless in whatever thing you want to do. Killing that commitment, you might as well dont give it in the first place. This story might had happened to you but ofcourse with a different version (or similar). But anyway, Im urging you guys to stay committed to things that you had ventured yourself into. Work,Routine,Relationships, even Leisure. Coz once you kill your commitment, you might never know who's cursing you out loud and how many people actually hates you behind your back. Lesson learnt!

Till the next post. C yah!

song of the day : On My Own (Vincent Vincent and The Villians)

ps: YTL still x masuk lagi.Lembab!
pss: Dah lame tak balik rumah.hurm.
psss: ............

salam.

i think the title speaks clearly of my frustration. yes, somebody had betrayed my friendship. and i clearly hate this part right here.

friendship is an unspoken oath taken between two people or more when we decide to take that person into our life and make em a part of us. friendship is that magical bond that separates the familiars and the strangers. friendship would differentiate, if i may, in a football field, a simple thru pass that would let the forward to score a wonderful goal between an awkward pass that ends up to far up and thru the opposition line of the field.

that particular somebody was someone who i managed to build my trust on. shared every dark secrets. told every sacred stories. and gossip on hot girls in campus. he made a good impression as a FRIEND. ow yes he did. but unfortunately, an event, or may i say, an action he did on purpose gets to my conscience and i realize how fatal that action can be to this friendship that we had build upon.

the action, which he had done, was really unbareable, stupid, disgusting and most of all, had entirely wipe out all my trust and respect for him. and as if the action he had committed wasnt stupid enough, he denied any wrongdoings to me. he even made up a very very immature, stupid and unforgivable excuse! as if i didn't know what he did under my conscience. What makes him think that i'm as stupid as him to believe his crap??

Unbelieveble. Its f**ked up that he did that to me ON PURPOSE and UNDER HIS SICK-CONSCIENCE-F**KED-UP MIND, he even had the balls to make up a crap story to cover his blunder, ow wait, his ridiculous action. Oh my god! U sick pervert! i had never came across a sick guy like you who have the guts to do this sick thing to your own friend? I am in disgust with him. Now and forever.

Probably, he never understood the word friendship coz he's just plain stupid and thinks that whatever he do to any of his friends is in their best intention. yeah. keep up the F**KED-UP work you've been doing and do what you did to me to your other friends. Owh, and I really hope that your friend(s) would not know this F**KED-UP thing you did to me. coz i'm pretty sure if they get to know the real you and things you've done, they wont even have second thoughts to discard them from their life coz you dont cherish FRIENDSHIP and you cant have their TRUST. you dont deserve mine. and I know you wont give any care in the world, but thing is, you're just sick and your hypocritism would lead you nowhere.

at present, he's presence is just another nobody in my life and i'm treating him the way he is suppossed to be treated.

before i end up with more cursing word for this traitor, i think i better stop here. he deserves all the trashing, but you guys ( my readers) deserves none of this.

FRIEDNSHIP is based on TRUST.and from this moment onwards, we would have none. thank you soo much for making me realize that people like you was a mistake to be made a friend in the first place.

salam.

i am so begging those rocket scientist that has work their butts of for the modernization of technology and for using the application of science, to make me a godamn time machine!

please oh please oh please.

i want to make up for the time i thrown out the window. for the time that i shud have been studying rather than sleeping. for the time that i should indulge myself in books and not in front of facebook. for the time i had wondering around in shopping malls, instead of in a library memorizing crucial formulas and theories.

please oh please oh please.

i am in the brink of desperation and time is not on my side. help me god, for i beg of extra strength and a pinch of determination to help mr through this jungle of work-and-no-play.

time is life.never waste it.